Aren’t we all striving for some sort of balance in life between confidence and conviction and humility and a healthy fear of God?
It seems parenthood is no different.
Sometimes my husband and I are completely flummoxed by this seven pound something human being in our midst. We wrack our brains for why she could possible be crying as if the answer were not completely fixed and finite. Other nights as she floats dreamily off to sleep, we proudly (yet quietly) slap each other high fives and reward ourselves with glasses of wine or bowls of ice cream (I now understand why so many people gain weight in parenthood with these celebratory rituals!).
As I lay awake last night, holding my breath and waiting to see if my sleeping baby would find rest, I was reminded that this balance between confidence and conviction, humility and fear of God, does not come easily. While parenthood is yet another experience that teaches us that control is but an illusion, I don’t want to walk on eggshells, especially during this season of Lent.
If we believe that in Lent God is reworking our lives to find a new balance, how might we reinterpret these pillars of confidence and conviction, and humility and fear of God?
Might we walk with the knowledge that we are children of God, with which comes great conviction, but also great humility. Might we discover that humility doesn’t mean timidity, that being a servant is a bold role in this floundering world. And might we take heart that it is not we who craft this wondrous balance in life, but it is we who are being made new by a God who teaches us daily, through the example of Christ, what it means to be this wondrous pairing of confidence and conviction, humility and awe.